Far too often we examine our lives with high-powered microscopes in hopes of solving some great mystery. It’s funny though that we can often see what we are missing in our own life in what we see in those around us if only we looked. An example of what I mean is being able to offer advice for a friend that may be going through a tough time, yet you fail to see the benefit of taking your own advice. I am usually guilty of that and it drives me crazy when I reflect on conversations and see what I had missed initially.
I have developed this sense of caring that I didn't always possess and I'm not sure if I really like it as much as people would like for me to. During the course of a "normal" day I receive multiple visitors that are seeking someone to listen (I suppose I'm a good listener). After I hear what they have to say I can usually dissect the conversation and lend them some encouraging words and be done with it. I think some people make hundreds of dollars for doing the same but I'm cheap so it’s all good.
My problem with the above scenario is, I don't have the luxury of having someone's ear per se. Now you could easily argue that any of those people would be there for me without fail and I would agree with that statement if that was how I was made. The problem is I am not built like that. It really is hard for me to express myself in a normal situation (As it relates to my feelings). I would like to think that I am not terribly complex but I guess that just isn't the case.
I love and value those daily interactions and think I am a better person because of them, but I wonder if I am cheating myself by continuing to hide what’s on my mind... Just a thought...
I have developed this sense of caring that I didn't always possess and I'm not sure if I really like it as much as people would like for me to. During the course of a "normal" day I receive multiple visitors that are seeking someone to listen (I suppose I'm a good listener). After I hear what they have to say I can usually dissect the conversation and lend them some encouraging words and be done with it. I think some people make hundreds of dollars for doing the same but I'm cheap so it’s all good.
My problem with the above scenario is, I don't have the luxury of having someone's ear per se. Now you could easily argue that any of those people would be there for me without fail and I would agree with that statement if that was how I was made. The problem is I am not built like that. It really is hard for me to express myself in a normal situation (As it relates to my feelings). I would like to think that I am not terribly complex but I guess that just isn't the case.
I love and value those daily interactions and think I am a better person because of them, but I wonder if I am cheating myself by continuing to hide what’s on my mind... Just a thought...
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